The holidays always come faster than you think
and then they are here and you almost want them to go away
it seems to be a reminder of what you’ve lost
of the memories that once were
and the people no longer with you.
Today I have a family
but it’s not my family from birth
I try and be joyful
but I am sad.
maybe things will feel differently
but until then
I celebrate for being alive
when once I thought I wouldn’t see another year.