About 99moods

Tim D. is a poet.

Over and Over

I write the same two poems

 

over and over.

 

One is called

 

“I’m in Love.”

 

The other is called

 

“I Hate Myself.”

 

They take turns,

 

rotate,

 

in my head and heart,

 

by the season,

 

or the weekend,

 

or from one moment

 

to the next.

 

Sunrise.

 

Sunset.

 

I’m sick of myself

 

and

 

I love you.

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It eats me up from the inside out.

It burns a hole in my stomach and

 

leaks poison into my bloodstream.

It boils and distills in my brain,

 

becomes a potent and powerful wave.

It absorbs the good energy and

 

burns it black,

a big bang in my heart.

 

Do you have one of these?

Doesn’t everyone?

The End of the World

Today feels like the end of the world, so

I’m pretending that I’m high.

It’s easier that way.

I refuse reality. I will not play along.

 

The boulevard is smeared with piles of Oreo ice cream.

A river flows on the edge of the street and

10 year old boys race popsicle sticks.

My dad’s truck splashes by, almost hits us.

 

My dad doesn’t wave because

there’s work to be done.

There’s always something to do,

even while the world is dying.

All That Matters

People jump off ledges

 

high above the street.

 

Dogs get crushed by cars.

 

People kill people

 

with guns,

 

with knives,

 

with their bare hands.

 

Trains come off their rails and spill destruction

 

onto the morning commute.

 

Mom is screaming at her children.

 

Dad is in jail for selling you know what.

 

Your pilot is badly hung over.

 

You can be replaced at work.

 

Your poetry is god awful.

 

So is the music you listen to

 

and the movies you watch.

 

Your socks don’t match.

 

You have crumbs on your shirt.

 

You didn’t wash your hands.

 

Your teeth hurt.

 

You smell rank.

 

A beautiful bird crashes hard into the window.

 

The model can’t keep food down anymore.

 

She’s coughing blood.

 

The president is an asshole.

 

We’re all going to die.

 

The doctor killed his patient

 

because he checked Facebook

 

during open heart surgery.

 

Mom and Dad are divorced now.

 

The children hate them.

 

The house is on fire.

 

He drinks too much.

 

She’s crazy on drugs.

 

Rich, white men pass laws to make themselves richer.

 

Someone shoots one of them in the face.

 

The sky glows danger.

 

The best player on your team just shredded his knee.

 

You slip and fall down the basement stairs.

 

Your arm snaps like a pencil.

 

Your 2 year old drowns in the neighbors’ pool.

 

All of this is happening,

 

all day,

 

every day.

 

This is the world we live in.

 

But I don’t care about

 

any of it.

 

All that matters to me

 

is this tiny, gray kitten

 

peeking

 

out

 

from the patio door.

 

Stay Gold (For Louie) Lyrics

Words & Music by Tim D.

(Verse 1)
Everybody leaves and all good things must end
But our souls are eternal.
They say that ‘All you need is love’
‘Love is all you need’
All I need is you

Let’s stay in and share some ice cream,
Fall asleep and share the same dream.
Let’s go out and and feel the wind blow,
Sing that song that only we know.

(Chorus)
My broken heart
Will stay that way forever
cos I want it to.
I don’t want to get over you.
The sky went dark.
Am I to blame?
I call your name.
I’m not the same since you went away.

(Verse 2)
Like the poem says ‘Nothing gold can stay’
I don’t think that’s true.
We know that time isn’t really real.
I still belong to you
And you belong to me.

I pretend you’re in the next room,
Tell myself you’re coming home soon.
If I close my eyes and pray,
You’re still here like yesterday.

(Chorus)

(Repeat Chorus)